Sunday, July 20, 2008

Love


Love-The thing we all seek, the feeling we all want to experience, the experience we all want to savor and yet this is the thing which has eluded me all my life.
What is love? Is it giving or taking? Or is it the selflessness by which you treat a person irrespective of whether it is reciprocated or not.
Does love take years to build or is it that one instant when realization hits you. Is it just an extended infatuation, attraction or something deeper? Is it everlasting, transcending barriers of distance and time or does it die out-like everything else? Is it an emotion born out of rationale or is it as irrational as it gets. Is it compromise or is it mutual understanding? Is it and extension of friendship or something so distinct that though friends cannot be lovers, lovers have to be friends?
Is it a connection, a bond that may take an instant to build or it may take years to be realized? Or is it just a matter of convenience, to be indulged in till you had time and inclination and then to be forgotten as you enter a new world, new settings. Is it a feeling for which one may wait till the end of the world and for the other to be conveniently forgotten?

Is love a one way or a two way street. In life you have to give to receive, and receive to give.

Love for me was giving-without receiving. Love for me was selflessness-without appreciation. Love was about missing-and being forgotten in return. Love was transcending barriers of time and distance-and seeing ppl move away into their new world. Love was giving space-till there was an empty void of empty promises in me. Love for me is still irrational-because I continue loving, caring, supporting without expecting anything in return.

Lucky are the ones who find mutual love. In my case all I got was empty words, false hopes, feelings expressed in maybe jest while I still clung on to them, and their memories. Maybe the love was not mutual, or strong enough, or one sided, but then that’s what this post is all about-to understand why, by understanding what.

Love for me is an overrated emotion.